To Tie My Laces

I tie my laces

Long walk or short sprint?

Closing the door behind

Clutter of noise gathers

I tell the noise, "not now"

I need a walk 

Far into my "silence"

Noise warns, shrugs too

Unsure, I step slowly 

Growing quiet, its mine

Feels like a landmine 

Ready to erupt 

Nothing erupts, I walk steadier

Yet, steps get heavier

Density of stillness

Jostles me to a path

Sighing wearily, I walk 

Hush, 

A dramatic quiet

I recognised the shrill cry

Raw bruises buried deep

I set a pedestal 

When I could barely walk

I cheered with pandemonium

To belong

Now I enter a abyss

Heart breaks did echo

Sealed with laughter

Desolating myself

I walked further down

Not this rabbit hole, now

Every sound of yes

When it meant no

An abandoned land

Is it still mine?

I fail to recognise my shape

I almost tripped to a bedlam

Silence, first angry, now cajoles

Own me it says 

In thousand little ways 

You are free, to be yourself 

To tie the shoe laces 

Untie the entangled mind

And walk

Into a blank page